Smiles' Crazy Blog

It is really strange for me to be posting on a Sunday morning like this. While of course you may be thinking that it is strange for me to be posting at all. Anyway the reason for this strange occurrence is that I am not teaching Sunday School this morning. It is the first time in forever that I haven't done that. While of course it is nice to not have the pressure of teaching it really sucks cause I really enjoy teaching.

Anyways on the teaching note I found a school to volunteer at. I need sixty hours in the classroom in order to get into teaching school, and I am hoping to get thirty of them knocked off this term. Fun times. I am really looking forward to this opportunity because I want to see how well I can function in a public school classroom. It is kind of weird because I am in a third grade class, yet I was home-schooled in third grade after being in school for second grade and only to return to school in fourth grade.

Good news for me it that the teacher whose class I am volunteering in said they normally do math on Friday afternoons, when I am volunteering. I am excited because I love math. It might just be the absolute best subject ever, because it is always the same. So I hope I get a chance to teach or to help someone learn math skills.

On a new note for the last few weeks I have been doing the work of two people at my job. That means that I have had to work incredibly hard all day and having to come in a half hour early. However tomorrow I get the opportunity to sleep in, all the way to 2:15. That is right. No longer am I starting at 3:00am I am working at 3:30am. Wo07! I know you are all jealous of me.

Lastly, from now until the final episode of "Scrubs" I all of my posts will start with the word My. This will be to honor the man the myth and the legend that is the man Zach Braff. Seriously, if I even got to pretend date as many good looking women as he does, I could die a happy man.

So, I haven't posted in nearly three months. I have been busier than a son-of-a-gun. Most of my days were spent working, then school, then officiating, then sleeping. I wanted to blog, but when I sat down to do it, I had neither energy, nor motivation. However now I have some time because it is finals week and I have nothing to do today, well nothing that has to be done today. So what is going on.

One class I am taking this term is Medieval History. It is a pretty good class, except that it is very hard for me to stay awake during. That is beside the point. The major project in the class was to either do a presentation or do an artistic representation of something Medieval. Well I did the artistic representation because I couldn't pick a topic in time to get a presentation scheduled. My topic was the trebuchet.

A word to the wise. If you do not have the ability to cut angular notches into your wood, do not make a trebuchet, or at least use different instructions than I did. It became apparent, while I have decent woodworking skills, that I did not have the ability to make the trebuchet as the plans suggested. I was scaling it down, but still it was very difficult. I had a very difficult time trying to nail 3/4 inch wood. For some reason it did not work well. However after a few short 6 hours of frustration I completed my trebuchet and when I had it in class, my professor walked in looked at it and said "cool." I hope I get an "A".

Writing class has been an adventure. I have done well, but there was a lot of tension in my class between a veteran and a group of four very opinionated students. Why this is important is that I sat right in between those people the whole term. While most of the discussion was from the group of four, who didn't understand the language that the veteran, who is about my age, used. He exaggerated his points in order make them. So he believed that the best course of action in the middle east was military action. However, when you have a controversial opinion you should probably put it better than he did. His exaggeration was that we needed to go there and blow the whole place up. Now, I understood this exaggeration. I think he did as well, however the group of four took it that he wanted to commit genocide against the people who live in the middle east. While that happened at the beginning of the semester and while things never really escalated too greatly, the group would disagree with any opinion that he had. So the last day we were to share what the main idea of our final paper was. I believe that the group was going to disagree with whatever he said. His argument could have been the sky is blue. They would argue that it was really sky blue. His topic was that as Americans we should not buy Chinese products, or products made in China, but we should only buy American, if possible. He said that would keep money in America, and benefit all Americans. Also, American products are better quality than Chinese so any extra you pay is worth it. However he put it in his exaggerated controversial terms and certain people in the class thought that he hated all Chinese people. Idiots. Anyways, there I was sitting in between these two groups hearing them fight, neither one would move an inch, no one was really trying to understand each other, and everything became ad hominem. I had to share my topic next.

I really don't like my philosophy professor. He used a false dilemma, oversimplification, and he took things out of context when he tried to talk about religious ethics. However when I asked questions in class, specifically about his false dilemma, where I brought up a third option, he said after holding his mouth slightly agape for a second "I'll have to think about that." That led to a nice discussion where the other religious people in the class jumped on him and never once got over emotional or angry. I will graciously accept two points for that.

I am doing well at work. I got a sweatshirt last week and a hat this week for how well I have been working. I think I am the greatest ever.

I am thinking about taking a golf class next term. I need a P.E. class just to stay active and that might be good. If it is full though what should I take?

I think it would be cool to make a movie where people randomly drop kicked people from awesome places. I always think that when I stand on the top level of the academic center and look down at the courtyard below. I usually seem some moron walk by that I want so badly just to see someone dropkick. Maybe I should.

I think Barack Obama will win the Democratic nomination. I really do not like Hilary. I think also it would be smart of the Republican party to have a minority VP candidate(Condi?). This way it will stave off the accusations that the Republican party is a glorified country club. Rich, white, old males who hate everyone who is not like them.

However my brother put it the best on this years election. You are either going to vote for big government democrats or big government republicans. I think I will go for the ones who will cut taxes.

Anyways ordering pizza on the internet may be the greatest thing that has ever happened to mankind.

Later

I just got back from the store and ate some chips and salsa con queso. So delicious. Did I mention I went to the store 20 minutes ago.

So I went to the store, and while I was there I saw a guy with a shirt that said "Tom Is Not My Friend", and immediately I thought, someone who buys their shirts from the same website I do. Wonderful.

Anyways, it is Wednesday and I am finally getting around to writing about the weekend.

Saturday we celebrated my mom's birthday. What did we do, eat a lot of food. That is right, eat a lot of food. My mom said she would buy the food, so long as her children made it. So what did we do, well make food. This was the menu, maker in parenthesis:

Orange Slush (Clarissa)
Cheese Fondue with Bread(Me, Bart, Becky)
Stuffed Mushrooms (Me, Jeremy)
Rolls (John)
Minestrone (Me)
Chicken Cordon Bleu (Bart)
Black Bottom Cake (Becky)

That is all the food I can remember, it was really delicious and I was stuffed when I was done, and my mom enjoyed it, and everything tasted good.

I bought the new Tool CD. Buy it if you only buy it for the artwork. I think it is worth it.

Of course I follow that paragraph with Church on sunday, was interesting. I need to prepare my lessons a whole lot better, one church it went fine, the other church I was thoroughly unprepared. I feel really bad when my class misbehaves. When my class misbehaves I feel as if I am not teaching effectively enough, because I have to deal with disciplinary issues. Then again, I still have not had the problems that I had to deal with when I taught in South Gifford Missouri. That was a lot of fun.

This week at work has been interesting, I want to say things are speeding up, but everytime I do it seems like things slow down, not enough to get scared, but slower. Money is still going out the door, so I feel good.

Today when I got dressed I put on a clean shirt or so I thought. I put it on, run to work and when I get there I look down ant my shirt and it looks like something with a huge paw has stepped on my shirt, perhaps a bear. I mean, when I put it on I believe it was clean, and it isn't anything that I put on my shirt. I mean really it looks like a frickin' bear or ginormous dog stepped on my shirt. It is kind of funny.

Watching NBA basketball I wonder how Clifford Robinson is still in the NBA. Also, the Phoenix Suns are really fun to watch.

With that being said I am going to watch the Amazing race.

I needed to put in a creative title. So really things feel good right now. Tomorrow I am going out for coffee. Hopefully other people I know will too.

I am so lazy sometimes, I don't go shopping even though I really need to. The only things I am going to buy this time is eggs, bread, and cheese. Ahh...the essentials.

In general people who think they are smart, are really stupid.

Here are my thoughts on immigration. If we treated every criminal like we treat illegal immigrants, think of the chaos this country would be in.

Anyways tomorrow I am going to try and get completely wasted on caffine. Yum.

So I am tired of getting angry. Angry at all different kinds of people. Just about everyone from idiots, to people who shouldn't be idiots but are.

I get angry, and then I get frustrated, and I don't handle my frustration very well. So really, I just feel stupid afterwards, and then I feel even worse.

Also I don't care what you think, you know and I know I am right.

So remember how I use to talk about writing a book. Well, I think I actually started doing that today. So far I have A character, A dream, and AN idea to work towards. Perhaps I shall find more of these later. Still I think I want to get BFME2.

I went bowling last night. I think I did pretty well. Well for me. My best game was like a 120. It was good fun. Plus Kirby was there and said he tried to bring single white females, minus the white part, just single females.

I bowled my first strike while Duran Duran was playing. Nothing quite like Duran Duran and bowling.

Netflix is great. I love watching movies. Tuesday I watched "Pulp Fiction", last night was "So I Married an Axe Murderer", and tonight I watched "Basic". That is right, two movies with John Travolta and Samuel L. Jackson.

Today was one of those days that moved really fast. At 2:30 pm it felt like 10 am. And now it is about 7:40 and it feels like 3.

Friggin' Awesome.

Monday - Sucked

Tuesday - Good

Wednesday - Even Better

Thursday - DVD Burner, more RAM.

I am pure goodness.

In order to protect company vendors I will not use the names instead I will just use vendor.

Curse you vendor. Eight pallettes in one day, delivered by Trucking Company, is just sick and wrong. I have never seen so many boxes of product in my life, espcially ones that I have to package up in rust paper and boxes. Geez vendor, now that I have felt like we were finally staying ahead of the game at work, you come along and screw everything up. This is about as bad as the times we get crate loads of boxes from other vendor. Still we are looking forward to a shipment from yet another vendor. Then who knows, it will probably all hit the fan then.

So I referee basketball, and after the game a man approaches me, who I think is a parent, and he says to me "I just want you to know your calls were horrible tonight," to which I reply, "Thank you, I appreciate that."

This guy isn't dangerous, just an idiot.

So I have quit blaming myself for things that aren't my fault.

And tonight I felt hungry again. Not hungry like I just needed to eat, but hungry like I could eat all the food in the house hungry. That is a nice feeling. It have been a few months since I have felt that way.

Since I now have my appetite back, perhaps I can gain back the 20-25 pounds I have lost.

The next thing that I hope to get back is my creative thought process. Maybe I still have that, but instead of using it against myself, I hope to use it in a more productive way, perhaps to talk to a specific tall, athletic, attractive girl that I met at church. That sounds good to me. Maybe I will post goofy stuff again.

New Years Eve is one of those days where everyone should have something to do, but for me, there is no such luck. Oh well, maybe next year.

I will try not to be so weird anymore. I need to wake up everymorning and tell myself how awesome I am again. No more just being stupid. I need to make sure that I know how awesome I am, and have my awesome awesomeness stretch out to all people. Then I will truly be and feel awesome and people will know how truly awesome that I am. Not weird, but awesome.

Isn't it awesome how I can use awesome so fricking much in a post.

It is snowing, and they cancelled church tonight. So I am eating melty gooey grilled cheese sandwiches. Delicious.

So I think I now understand why people binge drink.

So the last few days have been a roller coaster for me. Thursday, I felt really good. Friday was alright, and now I am a wreck.

I don't understand why I must prove to myself that I have emotions by making myself hurt. Perhaps because I feel good most of the time. So, when someone tells me that there is something wrong emotionally that has to do with me, but not necessarily that I poor emotionally, I convince myself that if I feel bad then I have convinced that person that I now have whatever it is you were looking for before.

So what do I do, I hurt myself. I do things that make me feel bad. Why, cause for some reason I feel like I need acceptance from a specific person. Unfortunately, I don't think that it is going to happen.

Today was kind of a roller coaster for me. It started off really well. I saw my brother play basketball, he started varsity after not even suiting up the night before. He played really well. It was great.

Unfortunately on the ride home, something my sister said really made me upset. She said "Andy you are dorky, no girl will ever like you," and meant it. Thanks Becky. I love you too.

That is so frickin' frustrating. First off, I am a dork. I know it. I don't want to change it. It is who I am, and it is not a character flaw, and she made it sound like it was. I want to some how get rid of my character flaws that I do have, but being a dork is one of them.

Secondly, I just broke up with a girl, and she could not really give that great of a reason why we broke up. Other than it was something intangible and out there and involved emotions. Maybe it was because I was a dork. Maybe that is the reason. She figured out I was a big dork, and now she can't date me. Or even like me. So if that is it, please call me and tell me, not that I really think it is, but yeah it would be nice to know.

And now, I sit alone again. No person around. I stare at the computer screen. I don't even know where I can meet people.

So know I understand why people binge drink.

So yesterday I went to the library and checked out a book on how to write popular fiction. I have read the first chapter of the book. It is kind of interesting. The reason why I got it was I want to become a better writer, and thus make my website more interesting. Now this site isn't fiction, but writing more may help me to write better which is what I wish to be doing. So maybe I can become a better writer and have more than 4 people read my site.

And I can barely remember the trip home. All I really know is that my truck killed eleventy billion bugs and my belief that all birds are suicidal, is strengthend.

Currently I am looking for a job. I need to get one, so I can move out of the house and live on my own. I need one that will give me 40 hours a week, and will pay me about $8 an hour starting. I think that is what I will need in order to support me.

So really I need to find a job quick, and make it a good one.

Anyways, my little sister is really mean, and I need to find a way to make her stop being mean, cause I have been home very little and I am tired of it.

So today I tried to install a new starter on my truck. I finally got it on the truck, and was able to start the truck. Then I got back to school and when I stopped I tried to start it again for good measure, but it didn't. Of course I noticed that it just kept trying to start. I figured that wasn't a good thing, so I open up the hood, and I see liquid coming out of my battery, so I decide it is time to disconnect the battery.

So I call my brother the mechanic and ask him what may be the problem. It is quite possibly two things. Either the starter is bad, and I need to return it and get another one, or maybe it was grounding out somewhere. So I took out the new starter, which did not take nearly as long as the first time, and I look at one of the cords on my starter and it had burned through. SO tomorrow I will re connect the stater, making sure that the cord isn't touching anything it shouldn't. It may be that I need a new battery also. So hopefully I will find time to do that tomorrow along with three finals. Woot.

Three projects due tomorrow. YAY!!! Good thing I didn't wait until the last minute to start them.

So today I had a professor tell me he was impressed. I hope I pass the class.

Now though I have to write a paper on C.S. Lewis' view of Moral Law, or Natural Law, or whatever it is he will finally decide to call it. I think that I may be faily harsh on him.

Ahh...I love ambition and nothing klls ambition with me, more than sleep. So last night, I got a lot of work done, why, because I didn't sleep. Today I did well on my test, I enjoyed my classes, and I didn't get much sleep. Perhaps I should follow this model more.

Umm...anyone doing anything tonight?

So here is what I am planning on including so far, if you have any suggestions let me know.

LAN Party Personalities

Host
Little brother
Pro
Nerd
No0b
Gamer
Mr. Freak Out

Games to Play

FPS
RTS

What to Have

Router
Ethernet Cords
Desk Space
Mountain Dew
Internet Connection
Food
Wives that understand or out of town
Trophy

The Plan

Diagram where people will be ahead of time
Expect problems (Mr. Freak Out)
Bad cords
Games not updated
Forgetting to take off firewall
Not enough RAM
Forgotten Power Cords
Not enough sockets
Microsoft Software
Plan for 12 hours of gaming goodness
Also plan for a high electric bill

So I decided that for my final project in Audio/Visuals I am going to do it on LAN Parties. I am going to have a lot of fun with it. I am going to talk about how fun it is, and the different types of personalities at them, and all of that fun stuff. So if you have any suggestions or anything that you would want to send me that may help me out with this project, like diagrams of LAN party set ups, then let me know. Also I think I want to put music in it or something like that. So please help, that would be great.

Tomorrow, I go back to school. I fly out at 1pm Pacific time, and land at 8 central time. I hope I don't get stuck anywhere like last time.

Oh well, my new RAM is on backorder, all 512Mbs of goodness. Hopefully my computer won't be slow so that I can actually play a full game of Battle For Middle Earth.

Brendoman told people to bug me, so yes please do that. I get very bored very fast, so yes I could be bugged. Maybe he just wants more posts, I want more friends.

I just ordered new RAM, you should all be excited for me.

Update: My RAM is on backorder. 7-10 days before it is shipped. But then, LAN Party goodness.